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I’ve a broken foot

I’ve a thyroid lump

Or is it a tumor in my heart?

I took a  pill and a sip and flew high

I call you to hear my desperate cry

You you you you on my mind and nothing else

But you are never there

Out of touch

Out of sight

The physical pain is gone

But my mind still aches

You you you you screaming

The child in me burns for it

Like a drug

The toy you show and put away

The toy I will never have

I hate you then

My heart is throbbing fast

My mind swirling

I’m falling again

You don’t want to hear me

You don’t want to see me in my depths

My deep dark soul

My fall is deep

And it is not even in love